It’s been a year since I felt like I had anything to write that was worth writing. I was sitting in the bath sad that a pile of friends were out tonight and I was not invited, that both of my bandmates backed out of separate practices this week and…

America watched them die and how many murders happen off camera. Photos from the Austin, Texas protest May 31, 2020. I felt the pull today to join the protests at the Austin, Texas Capitol. I believe that artists have an obligation to share their vision with their communities and society…

Part 4 — How my blood can help. My instincts tell me to close my eyes. In my gut there is a momentary feeling of falling. I stretch my hands in front of me, bracing for an impact that didn’t come. I force my eyelids open. I was in the…

Part 3 — Vee takes Will to the meadow As soon as Vee and I start walking to the car a collective sigh rises from his people as they relax. Idiots. Approaching the car I see a few fireflies in the field and I am mesmerized by the impermanence of…

Part 2 — Why I had to leave and the assholes of the future. I take the stairs up from the home I built with Jason, from the comfort of his body and his breath on my cheek. …

Part 1 — How meeting you saved my life. The world was on fire. You’re just so handsome. Like, classically handsome. I ran into you on the street. We talked about how we wanted relationships. People who are emotionally available. How we wanted to be a priority. How we hadn’t…

Part 2 — Why I had to leave and the assholes of the future. I take the stairs up from the home I built with Jason, from the comfort of his body and his breath on my cheek. …

Part 1 — How meeting you saved my life. The world was on fire. You’re just so handsome. Like, classically handsome. I ran into you on the street. We talked about how we wanted relationships. People who are emotionally available. How we wanted to be a priority. How we hadn’t…

I had a panic attack tonight and this is what happened. — Arguments are my kryptonite. My weakness. I like to think of myself as a strong, empowered woman who has my own fully formed opinions and I am not afraid to vocalize them. Until yelling is entered into an equation. I revert to my childhood state of defense. My brain shuts…